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Year End Personal Reflections
The year is coming to an end for 2019 and I took sometime to reflect on this year. I am thankful for how God kept us in check several moments throughout the year. The blessings that I personally received because we made a decision to put David in Yokomi Elementary (Science and Technology Magnet) School. In light of that, let me begin.
Year End Hindsight – God is awesome and wise
For instance, in hindsight, as I reflect on the year, I realize the wisdom and goodness of God is beyond our understanding. What do I mean? We made a decision to put David in a public school.
Did we have a choice? On one hand, we could in fact continue with CAVA (our homeschooling option). On the other hand, I could continue to struggle taking care both David’s schooling and my father-in-law’s needs.
The two years of working through both, got me feeling exhausted and a need to change our plans. In reality, we did not have a choice. We had to either change of course of plans or I died exhausted. We got to do something different. As a mom, I was stubborn.
I felt unless David got to attend a good public school or I would persist on our original plans. I would bit my teeth with grit and get him through his new school year. In retrospect, it was never a good plan and God knew it.
God in His wisdom intervene and gave us the best. Long story short, God made an opening possible for David to attend Yokomi Elementary. We grabbed it and the rest was history. What an awesome blessing!
This decision we made, with God’s blessings, gave both me and Dan, my husband, precious time together. We did not see the benefits of that decision we made until much later. It was like God knew we need it.
Personal Blessings and more
There were two major highlights this year, personally for me. David was given two free tickets to Big Fresno Fair in October. Above all, I got to ascot him to the Fair.
After being here in Fresno for about 11 years, believe it or not, it was my first trip to the Fair just as it was for David. However, he had to write a journal on his experience to the fair. It was amazing by the way! Needless to say, we had a great time there ( daddy was not there). Shhsh..
On December 13th, the day before David’s school closed for Winter break, Mrs Giometti gave me the opportunity to chaperone David’s class for a field trip to watch Nutcracker at Saroyan Theater in Fresno. It was another amazing experience I truly enjoyed and I was thankful for it.
Did I anticipate all these when we made a decision to put him in a public school? No, absolutely not! Through it all, we learned that we should not take our time together for granted.
In conclusion, we had to learn we need to make deliberate decisions to make time for ourselves if we are going to survive, not just for our marriage but also our family. So we have to consider taking care of ourselves before taking care of another.
Surgery for the first time
Surgery for the first time with our little ones, never comes easy for all new moms. Neither did it come easy for me. Yesterday, David underwent a major dental surgery for the first time in his life. Meanwhile, mom’s anxiety level went up through the roof.
It was a difficult day for me especially because David had his first general anesthesia dental work procedure and we have no idea how he would respond to the medicine. On the other hand, my anxiety level went on a overdrive mood since the day before.
“Nothing can prepare you for that day”
As a new mom, every milestone of your child matters. Some, you love to share with your families and friends. Some, you cannot wait to get there and some you just drag going there. This new experience for David, became my stressful learning experience as his mom.
When we first learned that he had to undergo this surgery, Dan and I did all we could to prepare for this day. We searched and learned about what to do. What to expect and how to prepare for that day.
My personal advice for this, just be brave and go through it with lots of prayers. The truth is no matter how well you think you are prepared for this day, you are never prepared for the unexpected. When everything went well and smooth, you are most thankful for loved ones prayers and God’s peace.
“Go into the new experience knowing that you are covered in prayers and God’s presence is with you and your family.”
Surgery – knows that you are not alone – works with your spouse
Here is one important reminder. Heroes are unnecessary, works through this new experience with your spouse. There is nothing wrong to let your spouse know your stress, your anxiety and you need support.
While we tried to prepare for David’s dental surgery last week, we discovered he had head lice and nits. What do you do in a situation like this? I had every bedding and pillow covers washed in hot water. Basically, only feeling relieved when the house is fully clean.
We got an electronic comb that kills all lice and nits when in contact. In fact today, we did another round to make sure all lice and nits are dead. We have plenty to raise our stress level but, keep in mind, to let your spouse help out and you do not need to be your child’s hero.
In conclusion, do not let stress cripple you. Let your spouse help you, and know that nothing can prepare you for that day. Just be brave and go through it with lots of prayers, support and God’s peace. You can get through it and you can do this!
Have a great week and thank you for reading this.
Lisa Page-An Opinion Piece
Lisa Page was interviewed and that story was made public on Sunday (12/01/2019). What do we know about her? She is an American former FBI attorney who served under former FBI Deputy Director, Andrew McCabe. If you are interested to learn more about her, click on this link.
Today, I focus on my personal thought based on her interview with Daily Beast that first appeared on Sunday in the news. It is not my intention to bash her further while she suffers. But, through this article, I hope to bring out some lessons we can learn.
“I try to keep my life together”
Lisa became a talking point figure when her personal text messages with another senior FBI agent Peter Strzok appeared on the headline news. Clearly they were a couple and they had an affair for a stretch of time. They kept their relationship a secret from the others until Strzok’s wife found out about their affair.
Eventually, according to the published interview, Lisa’s husband forgave her affair and kept their marriage together with their 2 young children. Infidelity is the ultimate betrayal of a spouse. It is an act not likely and easily forgive. Unless the spouse treasure the relationship and is committed to the marriage, this marriage is doom to fail.
She held her life well by a man who committed himself to her in marriage. Similarly, I believe he kept their life together.
Lisa Page- What lessons can we learn from her?
When you decide to marry, choose a spouse who commits to the union. In a sense, Lisa got married to a man who is committed and a great husband. She got it right! However, she took this man for granted.
Lesson #1 – Do not cast pearls before swine. Do not invest your time and energy on someone who will end up trampling on your effort.
Lesson #2 – Step into your marriage with your eyes opened. Basically knows what you are getting into. Be sure to know that LOVE is not blind. To LOVE someone is an act of self-sacrifice.
Lesson #3 – When one chooses to forgive, let it be wholeheartedly. Do not hold your spouse as a hostage. Forgive the past completely and start a fresh. Erase the past without a trace. If you can do that, your marriage will be strong, stronger than ever.
Lesson #4 – If you commit adultery and your spouse forgave you, show remorse and repent. Commit to change. Commit to a better you. Put your best effort to change because likely, there will not be any second chance. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.
Final piece of advice to Lisa Page
Lisa, please take your time to reflect on what you did. That is an act that almost tear your family apart. These are some good questions to ask yourself. First of all, question #1: ‘How did your action hurt those who truly love you?’
Question #2: ‘Why you deserve to be forgiven?’ Question #3: ‘Look deep into the eyes of your children and the man who loves you and tell me you deserve forgiveness after what you did to them?’
Above all, here is my final piece. Similarly, the only way you can move forward is to commit yourself to your family. Here is how you can make a plan to commit to change as well as to a better you for the sake of your family. Please stay out of the media, Lisa.
At the same time, it is important that you recognize it is not President Trump’s fault, neither is it your affair partner, Peter Strozk. The fault lies on you. I ask that you own up and turn from the wrong you did. Then you will move forward with your life and be happy.
Turning Point Is Scary
Turning point is scary for every new mom, but is so critical for future blessings. Do you resist changes in your journey? I know I do, you are not alone. My little dude who just turns 7, has been home schooled since he started Kindergarten. This year, in his 2nd grade, he is attending a public school and I am nervous.
Why am I nervous?
Public schools in California are not Christians friendly. Bullying is a huge problem and academically advanced learners are often not schools top priority. Therefore, they are academically unchallenged and advanced students are held back.
Turning point – I am excited and hopeful
Every turn that happens in our lives is God’s provision for something new. In other words, God is working out something new and it is exciting. Every change is important because God has a purpose for that change.
Why am I excited despite being nervous? When I was praying for David about attending public school, I asked to put him in a good school. God answered my prayer. I never imagine that David would attend a magnet school because the path was difficult. Yet, God opened that impossible door for him. I knew right away that God would take care of David.
Meanwhile, in my inner heart I knew God has had something for me as well. He eased my nervousness and reminded me that He is in control. He gave me John 14:27. Therefore, with that inner peace, I surrendered.
Just 3 weeks into attending his new school, I saw David flourished and growing up. He is learning to interact with his peers in school. At the same time, he learns to follow instructions and solving his own problems in school. Truly, God is taking care of him.
In His perfect time, God will work out all things good
Do you believe God has His perfect timing for all things? Every season has its purpose and God is in control and He works out all things together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)
In conclusion, do not resist new changes. Instead, let Him fulfill His purpose in you and your family for the new season in your life.
Inherit Eternal Life
In today’s text, we talk about Mark 10:17-27. Now, the key question lies in what the rich young ruler asked Jesus: ‘ Good Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?’ In order to understand this question, it is important for us to begin by asking: ‘ Where this question comes from?’
This question came from the rich young ruler. He asked a question that he probably could relate to. Being the rich young ruler, he must have inherited his wealth from his father. The word inherit means to receive (money, property, or a title) as an heir at the death of the previous holder.
‘What shall I do to receive eternal life?’ According to gotquestions.org, eternal life simply means a gift of God that comes only “through Jesus Christ our Lord”. Then, Jesus told him how.
You Know The Commandments
‘Do not murder, Do not commit adultery, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Do not defraud, Honor your father and mother.’” The rich young ruler replied: “Teacher, I have kept all these things from my youth up.”
Looking at him, Jesus felt a love for him and said to him, “One thing you lack: go and sell all you possess and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.”
However, at these words he was saddened, and he went away grieving, for he was one who owned much property.
Did The Rich Young Ruler Receive Eternal Life?
Sadly, the answer was no. The rich young ruler’s approach to eternal life was wrong. When he asked what he must do to inherit eternal life, he wanted to own more stuff. In other words, what was that one more thing I could have?
The truth is, Jesus knew his heart. After all, He said to receive eternal life, he had to ‘give away’. In the same way, He basically said to the rich young ruler: ‘Not to own more, but to give away’. The rich young ruler went away feeling grieved and saddened.
What Have I missed?
Meanwhile, ask yourself this question: ‘ Am I another ‘rich young ruler’? Unlike the rich young ruler this time, will you ask yourself today: ‘What have I missed?’ After that, ask Jesus to show you your true heart and seek His Kingdom instead.
Then Jesus gave an illustration about how difficult it is for the rich to enter the Kingdom of God. In Mark 10:25, He said: ‘It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.’
Thankfully, in verse 27, Jesus also said: ‘With man this is impossible, but not with God; all things are possible with God.’
In conclusion, the message of today’s text is to seek first the Kingdom of God. Therefore when you do, know for sure that all your needs after that, God will meet them faithfully.
Ever ask what are the colors of the rainbow? It encompasses of red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. In short, you get Roy G. Biv.
Ever since I heard of the story of Noah’s ark, I fell in love with God’s rainbow. Continue reading
Is God addressing California?
This week California had scares of strong earthquakes within 48 hours. On July 4th, we experienced a 6.4 earthquake centered in the Kern County city of Ridgecrest, near Southern California.
Subsequently, on July 5th we were hit with another 5.4 aftershock in the early morning and a 7.1 stronger earthquake that had its epicenter near Ridgecrest right about 8.20pm that night. Continue reading